Friday 18 December 2020

FMF - Not Letting Go

Five Minute Friday - Sharing my heart and thoughts in 5 minutes, writing on the world "conclude," go!


As we conclude the year 2020, I found I held inside a sense of fear. It's become normal for people to say "it's been a bad year," or "it's been a year!" And I get that, it has. Covid was suddenly around, it was among us, with us and continues to take many lives in its wake. South Africa had one of the worst lockdowns in the world, back in March. Looking back, I'm so grateful for it, though initially I was fearful. 

But personally, I felt as though I was falling apart when lock down began. 

I suddenly had to face trauma I had carried with me from 2019, that I had subconsciously numbed through work, new opportunities and day to day living. I ignored the gnawing sadness that had entered the new year with me. Lock down was used by God to help me face this. I grew a lot, so much in fact that I am a whole lot stronger. A lot has changed inside of me and I have been able to see parts of myself that I could not see before because I was "hidden" behind things I wouldn't face.

SO as 2021 approaches, it feels unknown. Not because of Covid, but because of the good things this year gave me and I've been afraid to let go of that. Yet, over the past week in times of prayer, the fear has slipped away. The changes and the inner growth cannot be taken away. God has good in store, there are new seasonal beginnings, but God has them all and HE never stops working on us, when we walk hand in hand with Him.


I feel incredibly grateful this year, that God has done amazing things for many people I love and care about. I've seen that the work He has done has been inwardly and that's a precious gift. What are you grateful for today? 


  1. Isaiah 43:18-19 came to my mind while I read your post. I am excited because of what God is about to do in 2021. Although darkness shall cover the earth and thick darkness the people, the Lord shall arise upon our lives. Glory to God! your FMF neighbor

    1. This is one of my husband's absolute favorite scriptures - he was talking about it again over the weekend, such a great scripture. Thanks for sharing.

  2. So glad you have known God working in your life and bringing growth even in the challenges of this year! Visiting from FMF #15.

  3. Isn't it lovely that we can choose to let go of the bad and hold on to the good. Hold on to the good, my friend. I'm grateful that, even though we have had a few close calls in 2020 (Covid related and not), everyone is fine. God is always doing a new thing.
    It's not letting post from my WP account, for some reason, but you can find me at
    Merry Christmas.

    1. Yes absolutely! I'm glad to hear everyone is fine now your side. I will pop over to your site, thanks for visiting. Warm Regards!

  4. " there are new seasonal beginnings" I like that. God sure does have good in store for us. Such an encouraging outlook. Thank you for sharing.
    Visit from FMF#5

  5. Hold on tight to all that's good,
    and let go all the rest
    that may in dark and pain intrude,
    deter you from your quest
    to walk with Jesus, hand-in-hand,
    through all your mortal days
    while all around you joyous land
    sings in thanks and praise
    for His warm and winning smile,
    for His dreadful scars,
    transfiguration and His trial,
    and for bright Heaven's stars
    that blazed His coming to the earth
    on that chill night of Saviour's birth.

    1. WOW Andrew, what a beautiful gift to read your words and such beautiful words they are - almost feel like reposting for everyone to read :) Always good to see you here. Prayers and blessings for you and your wife.